That One Moment...

There's that one moment when you stop and realize, you're really happy. That moment when you have so much joy in your heart that you want to shout to the world about it. That moment when you realize The Lord has just given you the desires of your heart. That moment when you hear the laughter of teenage girls, and the giggles of boys, and their voices rise as they practice memory verses and realize, you're the happiest you've ever been. 

That moment isn't without troubles of it's own. Money is needed. A new roof is essential with all the rain that is falling. It would be nice to have a dryer so we can wash AND dry the clothes since it's raining. There is a river where there once was a road in front of our house. Food needs to be purchased. Kids need clothes. More kids need saved. And yet in that moment, everything is right with the world. 

Why?

Because for all of my life I have felt as if I was always working toward something. There was always something building. It was all just part of the journey. A journey to where? I didn't know. I just knew that I was working toward something. My calling. Wherever that may be. I completely loved each season. I loved each place. I loved the people. It was all so good I never wanted to leave. And yet...I knew I was still working toward something. 

Now here I am, standing in my kitchen making tuna salad for lunch. Listening to the laughter as the kids practice their memory verses. Enjoying the moments of Bible study together. And I know. I'm the happiest I've ever been. Not because everything is perfect. But because He is perfect. His will is perfect. His timing is perfect. And He has brought me here. 

I never knew my desire would be to move to Mexico. I never knew my desire would be to start an orphanage and fill my house with kids. I never knew my heart's desire would be here, this moment. 

He has given me the desires of my heart. Thank you Lord that your ways are higher than mine.