Wednesday, March 26, 2014

How Could You?

That dreaded question that is sure to come! People will always come when you step out in faith to follow where the Lord leads. How could you? 

In my case, it's how could you move your autistic child to Mexico, away from his friends, his home, and everything he knows and is familiar to him. 

The answer is simple but not always easy. I don't know! All I know is that God said move and I need to move. And since the Lord told me to do it I believe He is going to work all things out for His good...even my son. After all He loves my son even more than I do! But living in the middle of that question can be difficult. 

But then after I've lived with it for a little while and I have been faithful to give it to the Lord, He brings me a glimpse of His answer. 

We went to Tijuana and my son looked out over the city and had the most serene look on his face and said, "mom, look at that view". It was in that moment that I knew he loved this city and everything was going to be ok. He would adjust. It would be hard for him just as it will be hard for us but he will be ok. When I see him playing with the kids and he radiates the love and joy of Christ I know he will be better than ok. 

He will learn an important lesson of doing things even when they're hard. He will learn how to adjust to changes in life because you know what, changes are going to happen. I don't help him learn by adjust to changes by sheltering him from all change. He will learn that you follow God's voice even when it's hard, you don't understand, or you can't see the path clearly. 

How could I? Because I love my son and I love the Lord. How could I? Because I'm a good mom and I need to prepare him for life. Not prepare him for life as an autistic child but prepare him for life as an adult. How could I....How could I not?